本帖最后由 郭国汀 于 1/25/2017 20:26 编辑
Love and hate seems like siblings. It is easily turn from love to hate. Chinese said that "love one deeply, hate him/her abyssal". My personal experience proved it sounds truth. My ex-girl-friend turn me from a virgin boy into a real man when I was 28 years old, who hated me so much that she tried her best to destroy my career as a lawyer in 1988! Because she misunderstood my honestly told her my true story: I was forced into a mental hospital for my openly criticizing the Marxism Leninism, and Mao's thought in February 1984! She alleged "rapt crime" against me while with a madness and malice heart! As The result, I lost my law license in 1988 first time...
Hate is not love at all, but only a malice sister of love, which very close with envy and jealous, for hatred is a vice of narrow souls and a madness of heart. In my life, I never hate anybody, even that girl who ruin my lawyer's career, I forgave her right away when I learn that she was out of mind for her envy. But I strongly hate hypocrisy, oppression and injustice. It is because the CCP criminal state being one of the evilest hypocrisy oppression and injustice regime in the history of the world, make me hate such rogue state so much! But I only hate the CCP regime, never hate any genuine communists. Communism is only a bad idea which can never become reality in human society, until human being all become exactly same in everywhere, and in every respects, such as gene-man/woman but natural human being. I firmly believe that to end the evilest CCP criminal regime for good, is my "heaven fate" and mission, no matter how hard it will be, no matter how poor I might have to suffer, I will go on fighting for justice and freedom of New China, which is restore the Republic of China, until the last breath of mine, when the time come, I have to rest my soul then I can say I have done everything I can!
Love and Jealousy. "Jealousy is the injured lover's hell", as Milton point out."Jealousy is the sister of love, as the devil is the brother of angels", said Boufflers. It is 'green-eyed monster', it might be offspring of love and always born with love; however, it is not the love, but a product of the love; Jealousy always extinguishes the love, which pays bitterest wages, turns the love to the hate, change happiness into misery, poisons pure heart into vicious mind.
Unfortunately, I have become the victim of jealousy repeatedly in my life. In Feb 1984, I was betrayed by my best friend in Jilin university, for his strong jealousy which even he himself might never realize it. Because I show the courtship letter from one of the charming girls to him, with a purpose share my happiness with my best friend, I never realize that I made a big mistake, for the letter trigger his evil intention in his deep soul. He reported to party secretary of law school, who base on a fake or unqualify doctor's judgement, forced me into a mental hospital for twenty-one days, suffered the forced brainwashing, I lost my memory and talent in thinking...the best friend sometimes might be your biggest enemy, this is the lesson I learn from my life. However, three years later, again, I was betrayed by my ex-girlfriend and fiance, for political reason, for my strong anti-the CCP regime! Thanks for her charged, I lost my law license first time in 1988. I never realize that nearly thirty years later, I have to become the victim of jealousy again! It is said that even pig will not hit the wall twice, but I have become the victim of jealous three times! Am I a stupid fool? Why jealousy always follow me wherever I go? Because I have got much more love than ordinary people, I have to recognize that I might be one of the luckiest men in the world, for I am loved by many people around the world. Is it funny or boast? I do not understand why so many ladies and girls love a penniless old gentleman like me? Nobody will believe it unless who is out of mind.
By the way, all words here are a practice of express in English only. The story, life experience, emotion, feeling, thought, reflection, dreams, imagination, opinion, judgment, comment, debate, discuss, analysis are practice only. I communicate with someone whose pen name is "Nanguo" in Chinese, while "Thomas G Guo" is my English name, My Chinese name is "GuoGuoting". I am waiting for my soulmate in the world, frankly speaking, I do not know who is she and where is she, she might be living in the Heaven. The ladies and girls who are pursuing Thomas G Guo must know where to communicate with him, otherwise, they will lose the greatest chance of success.
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